Before sharing my dream, I think it's important to explain the significance of dreaming about toilets and bathrooms. Such dreams often symbolize the necessity to be cleansed or to let go of negative emotions, frustrations, or sins. As Christians, we can take comfort in the amazing grace provided by our Father, who sacrificed His Son to take our pain and struggles to the cross. A dream involving a toilet without walls or privacy can reflect our anxiety about how others perceive us.

 

This dream had a profound impact on me. It lingered in my mind and felt like a message from the Lord. In the dream, I was climbing the stairs in a college or workplace to use the bathroom. To my dismay, I found the bathroom was on a mezzanine. It had no walls, making the toilets visible to everyone. As I approached one of the toilets, I noticed it had an automatic mechanism. It released a thick, potent disinfectant as soon as I lifted the lid. I remember holding my dress around me, hoping no one would see me.

 

After finishing, a large group of students came out of a lecture, followed by a Rabbi. I realised in a moment that this bathroom was for Jewish students. They scurried along as if I wasn’t there. Guilt and shame washed over me. I felt like an imposter because I wasn’t Jewish. However, the friendly Rabbi approached me. He greeted me with kisses on both cheeks and welcomed me warmly. At that moment, I understood that the Rabbi was Jesus and that I was accepted for who I am. My struggle with the toilets was simply part of my journey, dealing with the forgiveness of my sin.

 

Next, he guided me into a small room. Little artefacts made of silver and gold filled it. They resembled tiny twigs. He invited me to choose one, allowing me to take more than one if I wanted. I realised in that moment that I wasn't wearing my shoes, as if I were standing on holy ground. In the dream, He turned to me and blessed me while I held my gift.

He then asked me to follow Him into a larger room with a big table surrounded by Jewish men, all students. He carried a folder under His arm that contained my credentials. In my dream, He placed that folder on the table, within reach of all these men, and then turned to leave the room. I tried to follow Him, but He disappeared, indicating that I should stay. Once again, I felt like an imposter, worrying that they would discover I wasn’t Jewish. I overheard them say, “So you’re the lady…,” but I woke up before hearing the end of their sentence.

 

It was important to realise their opinions didn't matter. Jesus, who knows all, passed my credentials on to them. I spent several days reflecting and praying about the dream. I sought its meaning.

 

He gave my credentials to the other leaders who will work alongside me in the Vineyard. My insecurities and fear of rejection often make me doubt myself worth. I felt unprepared, and ill-equipped, like an imposter. But, the truth is that God has invested the life of His Son in me and that investment is complete.